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I Want To Die But I want to Eat

by Baek Sehee
🎧 14 min listen Psychology

A raw, relatable memoir of a young woman navigating "functional depression" (dysthymia) through therapy transcripts and honest reflection.

Key Ideas
Chapter 1 The Paradox of the Empty Stomach and the Heavy Heart.

The book validates the "gray zone" of mental health—where you aren't devastated but aren't happy. It highlights that "small" joys (like food) are vali…

Chapter 2 Inside the White Room – The Dialogue Begins. 🔒

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Chapter 3 The Tyranny of "Good Enough" and the Fear of Mediocrity. 🔒

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Chapter 4 The Black Dog of Envy and the Comparison Trap. 🔒

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Chapter 5 The Ambiguity of "Not Fine, Not Terrible". 🔒

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Chapter 6 The Hedgehog’s Dilemma and the Fear of Intimacy. 🔒

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Chapter 7 There Is No Magical Ending. 🔒

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Chapter 8 Conclusion: A Love Letter to the Imperfect Self. 🔒

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I Want To Die But I want to Eat
Baek Sehee opens the doors to her therapy sessions,
exploring the paradoxical feeling of wanting to end it all
while craving spicy rice cakes. She dissects the pressure
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